Not talking about it isn't working

I have attempted suicide three times in my life.

I’ll let that sink in for a moment…

That’s right, at three different times in my life, I felt I had no other options and the best thing to do would be to take my own life. The recent passing of Chris Cornell has stirred up a myriad of emotions in me, not only because his work was inspirational and instrumental in my love and creation of music, but also due to how his life ended and the demons he no doubt faced.

The first time was back in 2003, when I was just 19 years old. I was a little under 2 years removed for dealing with a surgery in which a majority of the bottom of my left foot was removed due to a rare form of muscle cancer called Rhabdomyosarcoma, followed by just over 11 months on chemotherapy. I was diagnosed the summer after my junior year of high school, had the surgery just 3 weeks before my senior year started, and began chemo the day after 9/11. This was on top of already battling depression and anxiety starting in the 3rd grade.

After that ordeal, I moved to San Marcos and began going to Southwest Texas (Texas State, now). Even if I hadn’t just been through what I’d been through, I likely would not have been prepared for college life. The pressure to pick up my life where I left off, as if nothing had happened, the fact that I had this silent cross to bear now, and the inevitable pressures associated with being 18/19 years old were too much for me.

All three times I used a combination of alcohol and prescription medication, and all three times I had people close to me who pulled me through it and battled on my behalf.

It wasn’t until the most recent attempt in 2012 that I started taking my life seriously, and started dealing with the issues and demons that kept me coming back to that inevitable conclusion. Confronting my depression, accepting help in the form of group and 1x1 therapy, taking medication and not self medicating, facing my PTSD head on; it was not easy, and still isn't, but it's so worth it.

Life is hard. Life is work. Whether it’s just the rigors or every day that wear on you, or you have chemical predisposition to anxiety and depression. If you’ve lost someone you love, to death or because the no longer wanted to be a part of your life. If you’ve been diagnosed with an illness, or are dealing with PTSD from a previous illness or a serious life event. If you're struggling and self medication with alcohol and drugs, I understand and have been there; you're not alone.

Either way, suicide is never the correct answer. Somewhere, there’s someone whose life you’re going to impact; life is your decision to make that impact a positive or a negative one. You’re never alone, and there is always someone there for you. If you’re reading this, it could be me. It could be a brother or a sister, a mom or a dad, a friend or a co-worker, or even whoever is on the other line of a crisis hotline; but you’re never alone.

We need to talk about this; I need to talk about this. When I recorded and released ‘Vices’ 3 years ago, I dedicated it to the nearly 30,000 Americans who take their own lives every year and the almost 40 million dealing with Depression and Anxiety. In just three years, those numbers have grown and now an estimated 34,598 people die by suicide; an average of 94 completed suicides every day. More people die by suicide (34,598) than by homicide (18,361) in the United States. Suicide is the eleventh-leading cause of death across all ages, the third leading cause of death among individuals between the ages of 10 and 14, and the second leading cause of death among individuals between the ages of 15 and 34.

That’s not acceptable, and neither is silence.

If you are in a crisis and need help right away: Call this toll-free number, available 24 hours a day, every day: 1-800-273-TALK (8255). You will reach the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, a service available to anyone. You may call for yourself or for someone you care about. All calls are confidential.

TEXT HOME TO 741741 or visit http://www.crisistextline.org/

Prelude to a Kickstarter

So, the time has come again for me to record, and with that comes a plea for your help. In the next few days I'll be launching another Kickstarter campaign. For those of you who have been with me for quite some time, you know I had a Kickstarter for my last EP, 'Vices', I want to thank all of you who helped make that dream a reality. This time, the dream is a little different. I have already secured studio time (once again in El Paso with Ross, but this time at his new studio Brainville). What I will need help with is the mixing and mastering process, as well as the pressing to vinyl. That's right, for my first full length LP, I'll be releasing it only on vinyl. Obviously, it will be released digital for the 90% of people who contribute and listen on their phones/devices, but pressing to vinyl has always been a dream of mine.

Additionally, I have decided that I'm going to donate 100% of the proceeds (once I've covered the cost of paying a studio/session drummer, mixing, mastering, art work/design, and pressing to vinyl).

I'll be donating 33.3% to Planned Parenthood, 33.3% to the ACLU, and 33.3% to the NRDC. While I do want to be a full time, working musician, and make my living playing, writing, recording, and performing, some things are bigger than me. I believe that the world in which we live in is in a particularly crucial time, and at this point I want to contribute everything I can to making things right and making the world a better place.

I hope you're all with me

Danny

Goodbye, 2016; Hello, 2017.

Among the endless “best of” and “year in reviews”, it’s easy to come to the conclusion that 2016 was just the worst. We lost so many great musical talents, as well as several inspirational actors and comedians. Oh, and to top it all off we (the royal we) elected a xenophobic, misogynistic con-artist who has no idea what he’s doing, seems hell bent on setting us back ~50 years, and has an itchy nuclear trigger finger.

Despite all that, and the fact that I only played 3 shows this year, 2016 was actually one of the best years of my life. I got to marry my best friend and celebrate it with my new family and friends. I got to be a part of her (and now my new) sister’s wedding, as well as celebrate so many other friends tying the knot. I started a new job that will allow me to leave work at the office when I’m done for the day, which should hopefully provide me more time to focus on the thing I love and makes me who I am, music.

In 2017, I’ll be flushing out this website, writing and recording new music, and playing a steady stream of shows. I hope to go at this full steam, and with a little help from my friends, 2017 will be the year I finally put out a full length OSG EP.

For those of you who’ve been listening to me make music for the past 17 years, thank you so much for your love and support. I can’t put in to words how much it’s meant to me that you’ve stuck with and believed in me. For those who are newer to the journey, thanks for not giving up on me and for pushing me to continue making music. For those just joining me now, welcome and get ready for a great year.

 

Much love & Happy New Year,

Gibbons